hard moments

Bruce and I just got out of mom's room. She was REALLY uncomfortable. I want to just share good news here, but it's hard because I wear my heart on my sleeve. It has got to be the hardest thing to see someone you love intubated. We were told she wouldn't be, but she was. REally really hating it. She is supposed to get the breathing tube out tomorrow morning. I hope for her sake she does. Just for those of you who don't know..I'm told that intubation feels like breathing through a straw while gagging. I've never seen mom so upset and agitated. I guess it's all part of the process. If it gets her a less painful life, without the risk of death from infection (because, let's be honest...that's what we faced), then I guess it's ok. But it feels so not ok.